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the way.
Though somehow she doubted sex things were anywhere near done with. For a
start, she could feel another angle pressing pretty significantly into a lower part of her
body, despite the fact that he was obviously unconscious. And then there was Tommy
whispering to her through the darkness, quite suddenly,  That was incredible.
His words stumped her for a second. So casually spoken, before she d even realized
he was awake. No worry or uptightness about any of it and he further proved this
notion when he continued.
 I ve never seen you like that.
She could tell by his tone he didn t mean anything bad. It sounded so light and
wondering, and even though she couldn t see his face clearly, she knew he was smiling.
Still, she had the urge to push, just a little.
 Well, now you have, she said, then added after a moment,  No going back.
Of course she expected him to balk at that. To tell her it had just been a one-off, and
that they didn t need to do it again. So it shocked and thrilled in equal measures to hear
Tommy say, louder and clearer,  I don t want to go back.
Kieran had sucked his cock, but he didn t want to go back. She couldn t think badly
of herself for not knowing what to make of the idea.
 Did you like him& doing that?
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She had to ask. She just had to. It didn t exactly matter if he had, but then again if he
liked it a little too much&
 Are you seriously going to ask me if I m gay again?
Or you know. Maybe she was just being the fooliest fool that ever fooled once more.
 No. It was amusing, how churlish her voice came out. Even she had to laugh at it.
 You totally were.
 I was going to ask you if you d become a completely different person, but that s
not the same question.
 No, you re right it s worse.
The hint of panic in his voice put her on edge and she tried to backtrack over the
conversation. What did it matter, if he d become a different person in her eyes? A
completely different and absolutely awesome adventurer in Sex Land?
Oh yeah right. It mattered because he didn t know she found it awesome.
 Hon no, no. I meant that& I meant that in a good way. I like this new person
who has dirty online chats and enjoys getting& things& from people. It s what I ve
always wanted, for you to share this stuff with 
She jolted, when Kieran cut in suddenly. Though not before she saw the relaxed
smile all over her husband s face. The relieved smile all over his face.
 Still not quite able to say the real words, huh, Bea?
For a second she couldn t remember what she d said. What little sliver of weakness
she d left for him to pounce on. But then she recalled the word things and the word
people, and for the first time really started to wonder why she skirted certain dirty ideas.
It couldn t be because of Tommy and a sense of his boundaries. Tommy had just
told her he didn t want boundaries anymore. Tommy had told her he was happy with
the way things had gone, that this was what he wanted.
So why? Why had his walls come tumbling down, and hers hadn t?
Because they were walls. Any fool could see that. Kieran had seen it weeks ago, and
he wasn t about to let up on it either the way he hadn t let up with Tommy. Tommy
was hers now, because of Kieran.
Or maybe Tommy belonged to both of them, because of Kieran. Either way, she had
to try giving as much of herself over to this. She had to.
 He likes it when you blow him, she tried, and it was easier much easier than
the fuck Kieran had once forced her to say. For a start, she didn t actually feel forced.
 You think? Kieran offered. Like a choice. Like another choice you guys can back
out of this, if you want. We don t have to go into who likes what and where.
 Yeah, he likes it. I like it too.
Kieran s hand ran up over her hip, too sudden. Too sudden and too thrilling. Every
little sexual part of her lit up, as though she hadn t had the most amazing and
exhausting screw of her life only a few hours earlier.
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 Yeah, you know why? Kieran asked, and a million reasons flew through her
head. Because guy-on-guy is hot. Because I m warped inside. Because I actually enjoy sharing
my husband with someone else.
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